I Didn't Ask For Your Opinion

This morning I went out to run some errands with the kids so that Carter could study. Oh, yeah, Carter went back to school. That's for a whole different post. Anyway, one place I needed to go was a health food store called Good Earth. Here's why: We are constantly busy, running here and there, both of us working, family functions, long summer activities, etc. etc. I'm not a fan of whipping out the boob anywhere I can, so a lot of the time I'd pump before leaving and when I got home. Well, I was told when I had Savannah that if you don't breastfeed enough, then your milk supply will start to diminish. Exhibit A. It has been a up and down battle for the past few months. Well, as of late, Cooper has mainly had formula, which sucks. I don't want to have to buy it, but if Mama can't make it, then he's gotta eat. Anyway, I was talking with my bestie about this the other day and she recommend a herb called Fenugreek. I googled it and found that a lot of Moms have taken it and it works for them really fast. It is supposed to increase your milk supply. So I called my doctor and asked her opinion and of course the nurse says, "Well we first recommend that you make sure you are drinking lots of water and you'll know that because your pee should be very clear...and yada yada. But if you're doing that and it's still not working then yeah, the herb is fine." Yeah, jumped through all the hurdles of lots of water already, doesn't help. I just want to get him as much breast milk as I possibly can, so that it's better for him and it costs us less.

So I head to the health food store today. I find someone to help me and she takes me to the supplement. She's like, "Well, we actually recommend alfalfa more, or even both together." So I'm asking her a few questions about it and mention that we live such a busy lifestyle right now, that unfortunately my milk supply has suffered. So, she proceeds to say to me, "Well, you just have to make time for it." Excuse me? I was like, Yeah, I don't know if my busy lifestyle is going to change anytime soon. Then she says something along the lines of, "cause you know that that is best for your baby." Really dumb a**? As if I didn't know that? Why the hell do you think I'm here right now getting this freaking herb? I know what's best for MY baby. Of course I did not say any of that to her, but I should have. She showed me the stupid alfalfa and I was like, "Well, I asked my dr. about the Fenugreek and she was ok with that, but I'd want to ask her about this before I took it." Yeah, cause lady, you're not a doctor.

I came home and told Carter and he was like, Wow, I can't believe someone would say that to you. I can't either. I mean seriously, I'm in your store, buying stuff, and you're going to try to make me feel bad? Whatever. I hope it works and Cooper can be satisfied with yummy booby juice made with love by his mommy. haha. I just popped two of those bad boys a little bit ago, so we'll see how fast they work.

The Jolie-Pitts Got Nothing On Me

Look how bald Savannah was! And, she's totally drowning in that dress.


We've always referred to Savannah's lips as, "Juicy".

There Are Suttle Similarities

So I took this picture of Cooper tonight and immediately when I saw it, I thought of the picture of Savannah below. They're making the same face, just tilting there heads a little differently. Then, after getting the kids to bed I went further back on the block to find this picture (and others) and see if they look alike. What do you think? Obviously the hair, lips and eyes are different, but some of there expressions are the same. Plus, Savannah is older that Cooper is in all these photos. She's more like 8-9 months.

Our Recent Happenings

Savannah still loves to color and will color multiple pages in one sitting.

Cooper is getting so big that he can sit in this car seat. This was Savannah's. We got her a new one that will last for a long time. And since he'll need this one soon enough, we just decided to get her one now. Once he can sit up on his own and in carts then we'll use this, otherwise now he has to be in his car seat so that he has somewhere to sit. He really doesn't like that car seat either.

We made brownies for baby Lucas's funeral and Savannah helped. She got a lickity lick when we were done.

She wore one of her new dresses and shoes to church on Sunday. She didn't feel all that well, so no smiles from her.

I'm gonna have to teach her how to be a lady...

Since she didn't feel good on Sunday, she just crashed on the couch.

Little Miss Acacia turned 2 this week so we went to her birthday party at Chuck E Cheese. Look how adorable that cake is!! Almost as cute as that face!

Savannah was resisting blowing out that candle! I was like, Don't you dare.

Dancing to the music.

My little studly boy.

Aunt Caren sent lots of fun things up from Texas and one of them was a Spider man computer! Savannah loves these computers and always wants one at the store. She loves Spider man too! I think Daddy was having fun with it too.

Mixed Emotions

On Saturday we attended the funeral for little baby Lucas. It was extremely emotional from the start. They had a little video showing when we first walked in and Carter and I both lost it. I was hoping he could have been my rock because I knew I'd be very emotional. Not the case. Both parents spoke and there were some beautiful songs sang. One written by Lucas's grandmother that was just amazingly sung by a woman in our ward. My parents were nice enough to watch the kids so that we could go.



Saturday was also my Dad's birthday. So we dropped the kids off in the morning so that we could go to the funeral and then got back there close to one. We were planning on going to the zoo, but the weather was a little gloomy and we weren't sure if it would rain so we opted to go to Trafalga and do miniature golf. Good thing we didn't go to the zoo; I think we would have got there and had to turn right back around to get back for dinner. The gloom ended up going away though and it was crazy humid while we miniature golfed.

While we were gone Papa and Cooper took a nap together.

Once we got to Trafalga we played some games first. Here's Savannah and Papa on a motorcycle. I think Savannah likes to collect the tickets more than play the games.

And me kicking Carter's butt at air hockey. 5-0. He'll tell you 4-0.

I got a HOLE IN ONE!

Sitting on the bleachers waiting for Carter, Savannah and me to go on the race cars. I thought Cooper looked so adorable sitting there watching everyone.

Zoom Zoom.

After the fun we headed over to Texas Roadhouse. Thank goodness for call ahead seating because this place is new in town and absolutely insane. We barely waited 5 minutes once we got there. Best rolls around! On birthdays they bring out a saddle for you to sit on!

After Texas Roadhouse we came back to my parents house and had cake and ice cream. We also watch the BYU vs. OU game, in which BYU won and that's like the biggest thing ever. Well, not ever, but pretty freakin big. Carter was like jumping around everywhere and when I was ready to go I practically had to pull him away from the TV. We don't get all those ESPN channels so I think he was in heaven.

He loves his toes! Stretch...

I've been trying to find (or take) a picture that I could make into sepia and put in this one frame we have. It holds 3 photos in it and one of them is one of Savannah at around 6 months. I think this might just be the photo to go in there. They're both even making the same sort of face.

After looking at all the scank on everything at Trafalga I pretty much anticipated that Savannah would get sick. Sure enough, Sunday morning she woke up with a runny nose and after church was full on coughing, runny nose, the whole bit. I guess the price you pay to have a little fun. Benadryl will be my friend for the next few days.

Thanks Dad & Mom for the fun day!

Little People

Somebody wasn't very happy.

i looked out the window and what did i see

carter and i stayed up watching some tv last night and went up for bed around 11:40 pm. i leisurely took my time. things were on my mind. i went to the baby's room window and looked out. and i saw it. a home filled with loved ones mourning. i could see there shadows and that they were all around a bed. mourning a baby. i wasn't sure if lucas had passed or if he was about to, but i knew it was happening. we had been waiting and dreading this. i couldn't help but stare out the window. i stood there for awhile. then i pulled up the rocker and stayed some more. i cried. and cried. i didn't know exactly what was going on inside, but i could see loved ones embracing, and later leaving. i kissed both my babies before going to bed. twice. all i really wanted to do was bring them to bed with me, and hold them. it took me a long time before i could go to sleep. i had so many thoughts running through my head. i cried some more. and then i said a very long prayer.



i've never been so affected by someones death before. they are our neighbors. we know them. it's a baby. a baby. 9 months in the womb, almost 9 months on this earth. he had a greater purpose. he changed so many lives. he has changed mine.


since finding out that lucas didn't have much time left i have tried to be a better mom. don't get so frustrated with her. don't let the baby cry so long. you have your baby, and soon they won't. i won't forget that. i will hug my children more. longer. i will practice patience. this is what he has taught me. among other things. lucas, i won't forget. i promise.


this family has amazing faith. if you want to read more about them, they are on the side bar under the Nelsons. start from the beginning. and bring a box of tissues.


cancer sucks.